Sunday, February 09, 2014


This kid is the light of my life!  This past week we celebrated his 10th birthday.  I have lots of emotions when I go through the events of the past decade.  It has definitely been the most difficult decade of my 4 but also the most rewarding.

When I started this blog I desperately needed to link in with the rest of the world of special needs moms.  I leaned on you for understanding, advice and hope.  Through the years I watched as your children progressed and I cheered with you as they did so.  More than anything I wanted to see my son progress... but he didn't.  I. Stopped. Blogging.
I am sorry.  But life was busy and I was desperately trying to keep a marriage together and nothing I could do would save it.  We divorced and within a year I was remarried.  I am grateful that I have Brian in my life now.  When I got divorced I didn't think anybody would be interested in taking on a mom with 3 boys... one with special needs.  Instead, I was blessed to watch Crew and Brian create a bond.   It is incredible.

Moving, starting a new job and getting married has really uprooted my world.  I miss my friends, my neighborhood, and running.  I am really struggling to find the balance that I need to be happy.  These issues mainly have to do with me being a little bit introverted and I hope to soon feel like this place is my home.

I look back on the last 10 years with Crew.  I am a firm believer that Crew was sent to me for a reason.  My situation with him has pushed me to rely on prayer to get through.  I have a close relationship with my Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ.  I have a testimony of the Plan of Salvation.  As for now, I am grateful to have this sweet little boy in my life.  He gives me the best hugs.  And while I may never hear him say, "I love you" verbally, I feel him say it 100's of times a day.  I feel blessed.  Happy Birthday Crew!


  1. Does this even work?

  2. Yes, it does. I am so glad to see you here. I am so happy to know you are doing well. Hard to believe he is 10. I love your comment that you feel him say "I love you" 100's of times a day.

  3. How fun to see your blog pop up on my reader! Happy Birthday, Crew!! Glad to hear that things are going well for you and you are happy. You have always been an inspiration to me. :)

  4. Anonymous11:00 AM

    Nice to see a post after so long. Crew is looking great. You sure have been through a tough patch but i wish you well and hope you find the happiness you deserve. God bless you. Donna.

  5. wow i was going through old blogs i had saved on my old computer and found yours. i use to work with you back at rand's office for a bit years ago in logan. fun to check in and see your update. i'm happy things are going well for you.


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