Sunday, February 09, 2014
When I started this blog I desperately needed to link in with the rest of the world of special needs moms. I leaned on you for understanding, advice and hope. Through the years I watched as your children progressed and I cheered with you as they did so. More than anything I wanted to see my son progress... but he didn't. I. Stopped. Blogging.
I am sorry. But life was busy and I was desperately trying to keep a marriage together and nothing I could do would save it. We divorced and within a year I was remarried. I am grateful that I have Brian in my life now. When I got divorced I didn't think anybody would be interested in taking on a mom with 3 boys... one with special needs. Instead, I was blessed to watch Crew and Brian create a bond. It is incredible.
Moving, starting a new job and getting married has really uprooted my world. I miss my friends, my neighborhood, and running. I am really struggling to find the balance that I need to be happy. These issues mainly have to do with me being a little bit introverted and I hope to soon feel like this place is my home.
I look back on the last 10 years with Crew. I am a firm believer that Crew was sent to me for a reason. My situation with him has pushed me to rely on prayer to get through. I have a close relationship with my Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. I have a testimony of the Plan of Salvation. As for now, I am grateful to have this sweet little boy in my life. He gives me the best hugs. And while I may never hear him say, "I love you" verbally, I feel him say it 100's of times a day. I feel blessed. Happy Birthday Crew!